Holleedaez!!

I hope you all have a happy:
Christmas
Hanukkah
Kwanzaa
Winter Break
or anything else you may be celebrating!

Actually, WE don't get out until Tuesday. We're prolly the only ones in the country.... But I get out a day early because we're heading down to Albuquerque and then Mexico! I'm so excited! At least it wont be ICY!!

<3 Vynn, the Paragon of Humanity (*brr*)

Quitting

I hate quitting, therefore, I rush.
When I rush, I do a sloppy job, but I finished, right?

Wrong. When you rush and come out sloppily, it's incomplete because it's not your best. Believe it or not, when it's not your best, it's not complete, because you didn't put all of your energy into it.

Think about it.

Beautiful songs, anyone?

I just thought I'd post the names of a few songs I think are beautiful and I listen to often on iTunes:

"Awakening" by Mae

"Everything Changes" by Staind

"Grand Theft Autumn/Where is Your Boy Tonight(Acoustic)" by Fall Out Boy

"Hanging by a Moment" by Lifehouse

"Iris" by The Goo Goo Dolls

"The Last Thing on Your Mind" by Lights

"Ordinary Day" by Vanessa Carlton

"Outside" by Staind

"Skin" by Beth Hart

"A Thousand Miles" by Vanessa Carlton

"Winter" by Caroline

"Wish You Well" by Thousand Foot Krutch


If there are any beautiful songs or songs that you could listen to over and over and not get enough of, please share them with me! I'd love to hear about them and look them up!

<3 Vynn, the Paragon of Muuusic

Thanks!

I was reading all of my posts yesterday out of boredom, and I just wanted to thank you all for staying with me and for all the support!! Some people that have been with me for an especially long time are Griffinrider, Alannah, and Beachbum, so many thanks to you, too! You've really kept me going, guys!

<3 Vynn, the Paragon and such

WHY?

WHY when I do something wrong, people say "You screwed up" 50 times over in 50 different ways when I obviously get it the first time?

WHY do people keep bothering me even when they see I'm about to give in to anger?

WHY don't people respect me?

WHY do people underestimate me?

WHY does it feel like everyone hates me all the time?

WHY, when everyone says it feels good, do I feel like a pathetic loser even when I'm all alone and crying?

WHY do they act supreme?

WHY can't I trust anyone?

WHY do I feel it's not real love I feel toward him, sometimes?

WHY do they tell me what to do when I have my own free will?

WHY can't I use that free will most the time?

WHY... don't they care?

Why... indeed.

Rawr other blog.

(don't be fooled by the title, I'm still reeeeaaaalllyy angry)

Don't forget to check out my other blog to read my manga if you like! I'll tell you guys on here when I update.

<3 Vynnie

>.< GAAAHHHH!!!!!>.<(WARNING::: much violence in this blog)

COLTON I HATE YOU AND EVERY PERSON LIKE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BAAAAAKKKKKKAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ahem...

Anyway, I'm sorry, but COLTON IS SUCH A RETARD! He says that Naruto is from America (sorry, I know I put Japan first, I was really worked up, but I fixed it now!) which, I know, is not true. I watch the freaking Japanese version! (Hel-LO Shippuuden!). THEN he said that it's NOT anime because it's from America (which it's NOT)! *slaps forehead(yeah, I really did this, and it hurt because I meant it TTATT)*

okay, people like this just make me SSSSOOO ANGRY!!! GRAAHHH!!! *punches random passerby*

*cough*

Anime is a genre, right? Like rock and roll. If, say, Pat Benatar (I know this isn't right, but it's just an example.) started rock and roll, and then later, in Ireland, The Cranberries started playing rock and roll, it's still rock and roll, right? Just played by someone different! Anime is the same. How many of you have seen Avatar: the Last Airbender? that's anime! even though it was done in America, it's the same genre! It's doesn't HAVE to be done in Japan for it to magically be anime. WHAT DIFFERENCE DOES THAT MAKE?!?!?!?!

<3 Vynn, the I'LL EAT YOUR FACE of Humanity

Gaian Superheroz...?

oh gawd. *dies* this took about 3 hours. TTATT more, I think.

anyway, I thought of this today. haha, my friend (who I know in real life) sent me a bunch of crap on gaia (this is my gaia: http://www.gaiaonline.com/profiles/15882496 send me a friend request if you have one!!). so I pimped out my avi and then realized I look a bit like a superhero (wannabe). lol. so I made this. I think I did pretty well, considering the time, and I've never EVER done soo much with the blending tool in my whole LIFE! ohgod. *swoon* i'm ready for bed. It's 2:04 a.m. where I am!



<3 Vynn, the Paragon of Humanity *dies*

I should totally be doing homework right now... but oh well!!

Haha, I did this on Saturday. My boyfriend, Ashton, called me (and we talked for an hour lol) and his friend was being mean to his kitty cat and he's like, "Don't be mean to kitty! :(" Then he said he was a kitty and so I drew him as a kitty because he's adorable one way or the other! xDD



^^

<3 Vynn, the Kitten-Loving Paragon of Humanity

Actions have meaning. Words have more.

OMG who else just watched Obama's happy 'I'm President' speech??

I DID!!

It was very much like Martin Luther King's speech. (i.e. 'We can do it' (that was what he said right?) was a lot like MLK's 'I have a dream'). It was touching though. When the cameras showed the audience there were a lot of people crying and smiling and such.

But what I want to say is, I can finally say 'I'm proud to be an American'. I couldn't really say as much when Bush was (and still kinda is) president. I couldn't say as much last year when I was going through a sort of depression and I hunted for defaults in America -- the people and the country. Now, I can say that without thinking, "But that idiot is still president and ALIVE (somehow)." I feel much better knowing Americans have taken a BIG step forward, electing a black man for president. I'm very proud of my country now.

I just hope he ISN'T assassinated right away (of course, it will be attempted). I hope people that try that see that it's not the answer, and we only create a problem.

I'm proud to be an American. And being able to say that is better than just feeling it slightly.

<3 Vynn, the Paragon of Humanity (Go Obama!!)

P.S. Please, if you wanted McCain, I don't want any foul objections. Please say it as politely as possible and respect others opinions!

Halloween was fun!

I didn't go trick-or-treating yesterday, but I did dance around my front room, scare little kids, see Quarantine, and take pictures! I had awesome makeup that I did all by myself!! <3


See no evil...


Hear no evil...


Speak no evil...

but...


Reject no evil...
It is the most joyous thing in life...

<3 Vynn, the Paragon of Death

My room... is so lonely...

ARGH!! My mom has to use my Dell Laptop for the high school play (which she is... pretty much running) and I hardly have it to myself anymore!! I get it tonight, and just have to take it down to the library in the morning. Luckily, she's figuring out how to do it without needing my computer which is happiful because my room is soo scary and quiet without it!! DxDxDx not fun doing homework with the TV running so I don't explode from the quiet. But I'll have it back completely in a day or two!! xD yay!!!

Anyway, everything is otherwise fine -- except that I'm still pretty much completely ignored by everyone in my house and criticized my anyone I meet....

<3 Vynn, the Paragon Who is Missing Part of Her!

Yay! A good dance!!

Yes! I went to a GOOD dance last night. There were a LOT more people there. But the music was mostly just pop and rap. Hardly any good, rock music. The three good rock songs that played were TNT, All Around Me, and Thanks for the Memories. I danced with Ashton (my boyfriend! <3), Tyler, Jaden (sp?), Mariah, Sierra, Maycie, and Jesse. Haha, Ashton was worried about embarrassing himself by dancing, so he pretty much just stood there while everyone else danced. xD He only slow-danced. But yeah, I had loads of fun, even though Colton kept threatening Ashton... oO...

At one point, we were all standing around waiting for a good song to come on and was playing with my house key in my pocket (just in case I had to hitch a ride home 'cause my mom and sister were out to a movie and my dad is out-of-town). I took it out and showed them my key cover because I think it looks cool and they asked me what it was to.

"My house"

"No!" -- This was Mariah -- "It's the key to Ashton's heart!!"

We all lol'd at that, except Colton, who slammed his head into the wall.

Al in all, it was fun (except the DJ who was really obnoxious).

<3 Vynn, the Paragon of Humanity <3

TCA people are the stupidest people in Colby... And that's pretty stupid.

I just got back from the most miserable dance I've ever been to. There were about 20 people there and no one was even dancing. TCA sponsored it tonight knowing most people would be at the football game and ended it early anyway because no one was coming. Jeez. The music sucked, too, because Kallie Mehl picked out, like, the whole playlist. And it was really quiet. I didn't even have to scream to be heard :(. and everyone was sad. and... I forget.
but the point is, it sucked. baaad..

<3 Vynn, the Paragon of Humanity, "I DEMAND A GOOD DANCE!!!"

Note to self: Shave legs next time you wear tights and spandex...

Yes.
Itchy.
TT_TT

*koff*

I was only wearing that for dance class. Jazz class, in fact. I should be reading right now, but I just really want to use the word 'inability'....

So, I was thinking about how much I really HATE Nichelle Burger and I just wish I could tell it to her face. But the thing that's holding me back is my inability (there's that word! squee!!) to be mean to people I WANT to be mean to (not that I WANT to be mean, but that's the only word I can come up with right now. You know what I mean, right? ...right?)! I mean, I can be mean to my friends, but that's usually joking or discipline (they get fairly annoying and have to know when to stop...). See, the only person I could really be mean to when I WANTED was Colton. Or... maybe I just can't be mean to girls? I have no problem being mean to the dicks at school... hmm...

Oh, and did you notice the new URL? xD I rant. It was omgbrev.blogspot before, for people that don't pay attention.

<3 Vynn, the Contemplating Paragon of Humanity

IIIIIIII haaaattee Suuuunnndaayss....

Ergh... The only day I hate worse than Monday and Wednesday is SUNDAY. Tomorrow, I have to go film part of a play (don't ask why because I don't know) with my mom, then sell Girl Scout shit, then go to dance class, come home and wash more petroleum jelly off my face, clean the bathroom, do homework, then end this run-on sentence! ARGH! And my stupid glasses keep getting smudged!! And my leg is cut on the underside of my knee!! DX

*fumes*

I am tired. I might just go to bed NOW.

Dammit.

<3 Vynn, the -- OUCH, DAMN! -- Paragon of Humanity

Bordum

Hmm... I'm bored....

Here's all teh pics I've finished on my tablet so far (just becasue)!!



















Squee!! ~<3

sorry about that 3rd to last pic. the one where it looks like he's choking her. I skrewed up and didn't feel like fixing it...

<3 Vynn, teh Paragon or Humanity(?)

Wow I hate my life...

So. Ian and David and Cheyenne and all the people that "hate" me. You know what I noticed? None of them even talk to me that much. So how do they know I'm a bitch? How do they have a right to say that without discovering it first hand?

And you know what? I'm about to lose my temper. Guess what? My iPod mini was stolen today. No, I did not lose it. It was genuinely stolen. Right out of my locker. And no one knows who it was, because pretty much no one saw. Let me explain:

Today, every 7th grader that didn't have late work got to watch a movie in the auditorium. it went from 6th hour to the end of school. I got my iPod back from Mariah (who was carrying it in her pocket for me at lunch and forgot to put it back into my locker) at the end of 5th hour. I remember very clearly putting it into my backpack. I never got a lock for my locker, so some low-life dickhead took advantage of my not being there in-between classes.

I suspect either Colton (who might have taken it as a joke), Ian, or David. Maybe even someone else that doesn't like me for whatever reason.

On another slightly unrelated note, my friends smother me. They treat me like I need to be hugged every possible moment. I really hate it. It's driving me insane. I wish they would leave me alone for a few days.

DAMMIT!!

Either I'm a goddess, or I'm a demon in this stupid school! Or as my parents would put it, "A Madonna or a Whore".

<3 Vynn, the Paragon of Humanity(?)

Can't trust anyone...

Okay, so I'm really getting sick of all the shit I'm getting at school. I don't know why, but everyone has something against me. Or that's how it feels. People keep saying that I'm a bitch. I know I can be one, but I'm not that freaking bad! I can't even tell people something like, "I don't ever want to go out with you, so please stop asking." to their face!

So here's what Ian said, "Brevyn is an anorexic bitch that sews her clothes on her skin!" I'm not quite sure where he got the 'anorexic' part. And I even asked him what sewing my clothes on meant, and he said he just made it up. Even though I told him he needed new material, it still hurt. Stuff like that always gets to you, no matter who you are or what they said. It especially gets to me when they say it behind my back and act all nice to my face.

This was a few years ago, but I know Cheyenne said something like, "Brevyn is such a little brat! I really hate her!"

And today, Jaycie (who I actually did think was my friend) used me as an excuse to turn Colton down! You remember Colton., right? The guy that is in love with me? Well, she wrote a note to Colton (because Colton likes her, I think) that I said I "Kind of liked him." just to get him off of her back.

I think I'll go ask someone tomorrow why they hate me so much. Why they think I'm a stuck-up, anorexic bitch. Wish me luck!

<3 Vynn, the [hated] Paragon of Humanity..

Unexpected (Prologue-4)

Okay, so since some of you liked that small piece from FWT (some of you might be giving me weird looks) I revealed a LOOONNG time ago, I thought I'd let you all read the story I'm posting online. It was inspired by the anime Naruto and Naruto Shippuuden. I'm quite happy with how it's turning out so far, but it's still kind of in the boring still-explaining-but-getting-to-the-good-part-of-the-story spot, but the next chapter will (or should) have some action. Also, sorry for uploading so much at one time, but if anyone wants to read, I'd like feedback on how you liked it! Oh! And, before I forget, here's a link to the characters (well, most the main ones, so far) and their info (i.e. age, theme song, bio, etc.) if you're having trouble picturing them.

-______________Prologue________________-

In the big city of Kalleghi, our house, the Theay household, was in big fuss. My father and important man in the military, Luke, and older brother, Lev, were leaving for war; they were all dressed and ready. My mother, Kami, was trying to keep me and my younger brother under control.

Well... mostly me....

"But mother! I want to go with them!" I screamed. "I'm four now! I want to go help!"

"Dada!" Kedai, who had just turned three, reached out to father from mother's arms. Father took him and gave him a hug.

"Dada has to go now, but he'll be back!" He said to Kedai. Lev knelt down in front of me and wrapped me in his arms.

"You have to be strong and wait until you're trained." He said soothingly. "So go to school and train hard so you can graduate! Then you can fight like a warrior to!" He gave me a warm smile and stood up. Dad and mom kissed.

"I love you all! We'll both be back just fine!" Dad said. Lev looked down and saw the disbelieving look on my face.

"I promise." He said with another warm smile. Then I smiled and hugged him one last time.

Lev never broke a promise.

TWO MONTHS LATER

"Mother!" I yelled excitedly. "Mother! The warriors are here! They're walking through town! Daddy and Lev will be there! Come on!" I ran out the door and toward the main road in town.

"Lucy?" I heard my mother call. "Lucy! Stop! Stay with me!" I kept running, and I knew my mother was running after me with Kedai in her arms. I ran through the crowd to the edge of the road. The smile I had faded when I saw the warriors faces. The long line passed by. I looked at every face closely, but none of them were Daddy or Lev.

And then, I saw a truly horrifying sight. Four men were carrying a stretcher and on that stretcher was Daddy. His face was pale and his body was still. I watched him pass and heard Mother gasp behind me. Then, Lev passed us. He passed us with a dead look on his face. His clothes were more torn than anyone else, and his whole body seemed to be in bandages. His long black hair was dirty and messy. The parade ended at that, and everyone parted to see their loved ones in safety. Mother ran to Daddy, but I stayed glued to the spot. I suddenly realized how gray the day was. How sad the atmosphere was. It started to drizzle. Was this a dream?

It had to be, because Lev had broken his promise....

-_____________Chapter 1________________-

I calmly walked out of the bathroom, ready for everything that was going to happen that day. I yawned and then opened my eyes wide. Wide enough to see my brother's room door was shut. I growled and pounded on his door.

"Kedai! You had better be ready or I'm going to come in there and kick your ass!!"

"You're going to kiss my ass?" He asked. "It's about time!"

"Damn you, little brother..." I muttered, bowing my head. Nonetheless, my hands curled into fists and I opened the door, slamming it against the wall with fire in my eyes. The smug smirk on his goofy twelve-year-old face disappeared as I stomped toward him. He was ready to go out to my graduation, but after that comment, I wasn't exactly ready to show mercy. I picked him up by his shirt, swooping him off his bed and holding him in front of my face. I pulled my arm back, getting ready for a nice, hard punch.

"N-no no, Lucy!" He said, putting his hands up and waving them back and forth like I had it all wrong. "I-it was j-just a joke! You can take a joke, r-right?"

"It's my day, today, Kedai, I think you can lay off the 'jokes' today." He started nodding wildly. I lifted him up further and dropped him. He fell on his rear and watched me closely as I walked out of his room and slammed the door. I cracked my knuckles and looked at the clock. It was almost time to leave. I sighed and walked down the hall. I lightly knocked on the door.

"Mom? Are we leaving soon?"

"Just a moment, dear!" I heard from inside. "Are your brothers ready?"

"I think it's safe to say they are. I haven't checked on Lev, but he's usually ready on time. Kedai's ready, I think." Mother opened her bedroom door. She was in a long, semi-formal white dress. Her long, light blond hair was in a complicated braid and her beautiful face had little make-up on it. She wore white sandals that strapped around her ankles. She was pretty and practical, classic Mother.

"You look so pretty!" She said with a motherly smile across her face. I looked away.

"Jeez, mom, it's just semi-formal..." I was wearing a tight, uncomfortable braid and a dress shirt with black pants. It was so formal, I wanted to jump in some mud.

"But you're never this gussied up! You're so adorable!"

"Okay, let's just leave now, please?" I said rolling my eyes. I walked down the hall with Mom behind me. I knocked on Lev's door while Mom looked over Kedai.

"Lev? You ready?" Lev had taken the weekend off for my graduation. He didn't have his own place yet, so he stayed with us in his old bedroom. After the war. He was appointed lieutenant of the Local Protection. He helped guard the city from attacks and sometimes patrolled the city to watch for local crimes. All men and women in lower ranks in the military must stay in the military dorms. They are allowed to visit their family, but have to wait for a higher rank to have their own house. If you're a higher rank, but you want to stay at the dorms, you can be moved to a special, more luxurious part of the dorms. That's where Lev lived.

Lev opened the door and smiled warmly.

"I'm ready!" He said. He was wearing a suit as well, and his long, sleek hair was tied back into a ponytail. He put his hand on my shoulder. "I am proud to be your brother, Lucy. You're becoming a full-fledged ninja today! And you had straight A's all through school, in body and mind. You'll make history." Another smile, and then we walked out the door and started down the road to the school.

He said I'd make history, but was that good, or bad?

-_______________Chapter 2_______________-

We walked up to the front doors of the Kalleghi Academy for Young Warriors. There, two men from the military were standing guard on either side of the entrance. They looked us over, and when they saw Lev, they saluted, looking straight ahead. Apparently, they were avoiding eye-contact.

"S-sir!" They said in unison.

"Lieutenant!" One of them said. "May I ask what you are doing here?"

"Well," Lev answered with an easygoing smile. "I am, of course, here to witness my sister become a Level 1 Ninja!" He put his hand on my shoulder.

"O-oh!" The other said without breaking his salute. "Congratulations, sir!" Lev nodded and we continued through the doors. I inconspicuously watched them as we walked forward. They looked at each other and sighed out of relief. I raised my eyebrows and walked around a corner. Why would they fear Lev? I thought. We rounded another corner and came to the auditorium doors which were wide open. The room was full of people and "Congratulations!" signs. All of the teenagers that had gone to the K.A.Y.W. too were dressed up in nice clothes, just like me. Most of them seemed to hate it. Just like me.But there was one thing that these teens and I had difference in.

They all had friends, and I had none. Of course, I knew people. I had been in the same class as a portion of these kids since I started school at five-years-old. I had known some people of these people for about eight years, because we were always with the same people, the same teacher and students each year. But I'd always had trouble making friends. I just was never someone of interest, so people never hung around me for too long.

Perhaps there will be people from the other classes that will like me? Maybe. But now, I'll focus on where my family is going. I followed them to the middle of the audience seats and was about to enter when Mother turned around to face me.

"Lucy, you should go talk to some of your friends! We still have quite a wait!" Of course, I never told anyone I had none.

"Oh!" I said. "Uh... I d-don't see any of them! I think I'll be fine waiting with you guys!"

"Oh, that's fine," Lev said. "You should go look for them, Lu." He gave me a warm smile and sat in his seat.

"Yes! We'll sit right here, and you can have the end seat so you don't have to walk past everyone!"

"Oh -- uh... okay. Thanks." I said, giving a convincing smile. Damn!

I walked to the crowd and looked around for imaginary people. Once I was sure my family couldn't see me, I tried to pass through the crowd invisibly. A few people elbowed me, and I said "Sorry" or "Excuse me." I finally exited the thick part of the crowd, but something tripped me. I fell forward and quickly executed a tuck-and-roll. An old trick, I admit, but incredibly useful. Still crouching, I looked behind me to see what I had tripped over, but nothing was there. I frowned and stood up. Before I could completely straighten up, however, the surprises kept coming.

Suddenly my head felt like it was split open. I cried out in pain and squeezed my head, as if to shut a gaping hole. I looked up and saw a boy, my age, of course, who was dressed in a suit, like all of the other boys. He had dark, spiked brown hair. His neck and half of his face was covered with a cream-colored scarf. I shook my head. He rubbed his chin under the cloth. His eyebrows came together in a frown.

"Watch it!" He said angrily. "I think you broke my jaw!"

"Oh," I replied, brushing myself off. "don't be a baby. If I had broken your jaw, you wouldn't even be able to speak. Besides, if you don't want to get hit, then watch where you put your face!" He got right in my own face.

"Why were you on the ground in the first place, eh? You wouldn't have hit me if you weren't crawling around on the floor!"

"Well, if you weren't stalking me, you wouldn't have leaned over and gotten hit!"

"Stalking? You're kidding right? Who in their right minds would want to stalk you?"

"Look bub, if you don't want to have your throat torn out before you even become a ninja, shut the hell up!"

"I think you should be the one to shut up!"

"Well, well..." A new voice interrupted the argument over our little train wreck. I looked behind me. A girl stood with a hand on her hip and a smirk on her face. Her red violet hair was cut short and fashioned with too much hairspray to make it look decent. She wore a blue dress and blue slip-on dress shoes. She had a beauty mark under her right eye and her skin was very tan. "Luce, you haven't been here five minutes and you're already in a fight." Luce's eyebrows evened out.

"Cammy," He said, not surprised. "How did you know I've only been here five minutes?" Cammy calmly walked over to Luce's side and stood for a moment. Then she punched the back of his head. He stumbled forward and I moved out of his way.

"I saw you enter, dummy!" She said.

"Gah!" He yelled. "You don't have to hit me!"

"Well, I was following you and calling your name! You can't tell me you didn't hear..."

"Maybe I didn't want to be seen around you..." Cammy delivered another punch to the back of his head. He yelped and stumbled again. Then, Cammy seemed to notice me.

"Hi, there!" She said happily, picking up Luce and holding him up under an arm. "I'm Cammy and this temper-mental jerk is Luce."

"I think I have brain damage now..." Luce murmured under Cammy's arm.

"Oh, shut up, you had brain damage before this." Cammy said.

"I'm Lucy." I laughed.

"Ah, hear that, Luce? There's a person that almost shares your name, but will never share your idiocy." She chuckled. "Don't be fooled by his appearance, he's really a sweetheart." Luce wiggled out of Cammy's grasp and stood up straight, trying to regain his balance and his pride all at the same time.

"Shut up, woman." He said and walked away. We laughed again.

"He is, though." Cammy went on. "He was in my class, and he used to be such a crybaby! But we're real close, so I can usually predict what will happen. He's really sympathetic if there's no-one but me around."

"Wow, hard to believe that." I said.

"Yeah, I know. But, he won't show his real self unless you're really close."

"Oh." I said.

Well, I suppose that probably wont happen.

-______________Chapter 3_______________-

"So, what class were you in?" Cammy asked me as we leaned against a wall.

"Class 31." I replied. "You?"

"27" She said. "I've never seen you around town before, though."

"Oh! Yeah. I... I don't leave my property often. I've never really had anywhere to go with anybody but my little brother."

"Hmm... are you saying you don't have friends?"

I started. "Oh, I... I guess I am...."

"Oh, that's too bad. I don't have many friends, either. I suppose Luce is my only very good friend."

"Wow, that must be annoying."

"Yeah, it can be!" She laughed. She stared into the crowd. "People have just always thought I was weird. Nobody wanted to be around me. It was like they thought they would catch some kind of disease."

"Why? Do you know?"

She looked at the floor.

"Sort of." She said quietly. "I... I know what's different about me, but I don't know why they keep such a distance."

I studied her face, and then I noticed something.

"Oh! Your eyes..." I began.

"Are incredibly red?" She finished my sentence for me. "Yeah. That's the weird part of me. I can feel any kind of heat, even from a large distance away. I can see heat, too. I can't see your face right now, you just look like a bunch of different colors moving around in a human shape. The air is light red, too."

"So -- you technically can't see?" I asked in astonishment.

"Well, yes. I guess so. Even though colors are visible to me, I might as well be blind. But, glass and plastic can block it out just a bit, I usually like to wear sunglasses or goggles." She smiled. "But I pretty much go on what I can feel around me. It's almost like having 360 degree vision!"

"Wow! That's amazing! I wish I had that ability!" I said excitedly. How useful would it be to have 360 vision?

"Trust me," She said. "it's not all it's cracked up to be. I can only see so clearly with eye cover. It's like taking your vision and putting a layer of red paint over it."

"Oh, I see." She sounds like someone that wouldn't talk to me on normal circumstances. But she seems to have almost the same problem as me. Suddenly, she frowned.

"What the hell is he doing?" She asked, to herself, apparently.

"What?" I asked.

"Luce." She said. "His body temperature is changing rapidly. Back and forth between hot and cold.... What's going on?" She started to walk away. I followed her. I hadn't realized before, but now I saw that she looked straight ahead when she walked; like she couldn't see at all. As she walked across a the floor, she talked.

"This is odd.... There are two people with him and -- oh, not again!" She started to jog.

"Again?" I asked as we grew closer to a crowd. "What happened? It's happened before?"

"Yeah," She said in an angry tone. "and I know exactly what they're doing and who's doing it!" She pushed through the crowd, showing no mercy to anyone in her way. I walked behind her in the path she made. I caught up with her just as we got to the middle of the crowd. A space was cleared out for three boys. the one in the middle was Luce, the other two were unknown to me. The two boys I hadn't met were tugging on Luce's scarf. Luce was trying desperately to keep it in place. His hands were occupied, so he couldn't seem to fight back. There must really be something he doesn't want people to see. I thought. One of the boys, his hair bright blue, grabbed Luce's arm.

Suddenly, Luce was covered in frost. Then, the other boy, his hair as red as Cammy's eyes, touched his arm and the frost melted.

"Hey! Hey! HEY!" Cammy yelled. She yanked someone's water bottle out of their hands and threw it. For a mostly blind girl, she had some kick-ass aim. The hard, plastic bottle hit the redhead square in the forehead. He let go of Luce and fell backwards. Seeing an opening, Luce messily wrapped the scarf back around his face. He looked at the remaining boy with menace in his eyes. Grabbing the shocked boy's hand hard, he picked him up, flung him over his head, and onto the redhead. He glared at him and then turned back to the crowd and opened his arms wide.

"Anybody else?" He called triumphantly. Cammy and I rolled our eyes. Now that his guard was up and he had a winning chance, he was as cocky as ever.

"Huh? Nobody?" He said. "Come on! I can take yah!" Cammy cleared her throat. Luce glanced at her and waited a moment.

"Fine," He said quietly, eerily. "but I'm not letting my guard down again. That was a one-time thing!" He walked between us and through the crowd. Everyone cleared a path for him and Cammy, who followed him. I glanced at the two boys moaning on the ground once more and then quickly followed them.

"So... I take it you usually get into fights?" I asked Luce when I caught up with them.

"Now what would give you that idea?" Luce asked sarcastically.

"Tch..." I rolled my eyes. "Don't be sarcastic with me!"

"Why not?" He challenged as turned to face me.

"Well, why should be the question." I spat. "You don't have to be such a jerk all the time!"

"Just one thing after another..." Cammy muttered, but we ignored her.

"You don't have to be so nosy all the time!" His face was turning red in anger. "Why don't you go crawl back into that friendless hole you call your life!"

I was speechless. That hurt, badly. When he saw the look on my face, his eyes softened.

"I--I didn't mean that...." He said ruefully. I bowed my head. I'd heard that going around at the academy. I had better hearing than people thought. Kids had made jokes out of my loneliness and laughed like it was the funniest thing. I swallowed hard. I had hoped before I came here that it wouldn't always be like that. But I guessed I just didn't have any luck whatsoever....

"I -- but -- I --!" Luce stuttered. Cammy's fist flew out of the blue and hit his cheek, hard. He flew to the side and Cammy put her arm around my shoulder.

"Don't listen to Luce!" She said. "You know he just let anger talk! He didn't mean it!" I shook my head to clear it and looked up.

"I--I know!" I smiled, hopefully it was convincing. "It just caught me off-guard! I'm okay, really!" I walked to Luce and held out my hand. He looked at it incredulously.

"You--you're not mad?"He asked.

"Ah, no! I forgive quickly, don't worry. I know you didn't mean it, of course."

"Oh! I--uh..." He took my hand and stood up. "You--" He didn't get to finish, because then the audience was called to their seats.

-______________Chapter 4________________-

Everyone took their seats as the graduation started. The lord mayor, Russ Minirai, walked out onto the stage and stopped in front of the podium that stood in the middle. He wore the suit he always wore at work with all his badges pinned to his chest. He was not old, but not young; his brown hair was speckled with gray and his face was slightly lined. Wrinkles at the corner of his eyes and mouth showed he smiled often. Everyone's eyes were on him as he spoke his first sentence.

"My, my, we sure are formal today. I feel like the only casual one here!" He smiled at us. A small chuckle came up from some of the people in the crowd. Most people smiled, probably glad not to have a serious lord mayor.

"Well then," He continued. "Welcome soon-to-be-ninja graduates! You must all be very excited to become adults! I am happy to host yet another graduation this year. I know all of you will succeed tremendously! But first, let me explain how you'll graduate." I saw a lot of kids look at each other.

"What?" Someone whispered behind me. "I thought this was all!"

"Oh ho!" Minirai laughed. "You didn't think a simple ceremony would make you ninjas, did you? Oh, no no no! This is just where we explain what will happen!" Most of the kids made surprised noises.

"There are three tests you must pass before becoming a real ninja. The first tests your abilities. The second tests your knowledge. And the third tests your skill. If you cannot pass all of the tests..." He paused. "you must go back to the academy." A large gasp emitted from the crowd. I gaped at him.

"Well, we have some surprised faces in the audience!" His eyes swept over the audience. "Only the best will pass. But! You do have time to prepare. I suggest you gather your nerves and get a good night's sleep tonight!" He laughed alone.

"So, then. If you pass, you will be given a Cloth." He held up a thin, long piece of black fabric. "This will officially announce you as a ninja. And the more you get, the higher your rank." Okay, now I get it. That's why Lev had always had those things tied to his bag! But why the secrets? I wondered in my mind.

"I bet you're all wondering why we kept this secret!" Minirai suddenly said. I started. "Well, we wanted to see how you prepared yourself for the unknown. We wanted to see whether you worked hard to take on anything that suddenly came up unexpectedly, or if you just did what you were told so you could pass..." I saw some kids look at their feet, away from the lord mayor. Hmm... I thought. So how long are the--

"The tests -- or exams, as we call them -- will only last a day." He said. Jeez! I thought. That's incredibly creepy! How does he keep reading my mind? "That day," He continued. "is tomorrow." The crowd gasped again.

"You can't expect us to be ready by tomorrow!" Someone shouted.

"Yeah!" Another voice came up. "How are we supposed to prepare ourselves?" Sounds of agreements came from all around.

"Didn't I explain the surprise just now?" Minirai asked. The sounds of anger and nervousness ceased, replaced by an uncomfortable silence. Minirai looked across the audience. I felt like his eyes lingered on me for a moment.

"So, ability, knowledge, skill. Easy, right?" He said.

"Tch..." I quietly said to no-one. Probably not. I thought.

"You will, as you may know, be assigned to a dorm until you're at least 3rd Level. That could take any amount of time, depending on how talented you are. You will have a room mate, too, of course." A few people raised their eyebrows, but there were no loud sounds. "After the exams, your roommate and team members will be determined by your skills so you are divided evenly. I hope you all get along!" I sighed pessimistically. Ooh, lets all get along!

"Your roommate will be on your team. The teams will be made up of four beginners and a 5th Level as the leader/teacher. Make sure you can get along with your teammates, you'll be with them until you die, or are no longer a ninja, which will be a very long time from now, unless you are a traitor." He emphasized the last word with an unfamiliar emotion.

There was a quiet murmur traveling over the crowd. Once everything was silent again, the lord mayor spoke.

"Well, I do hope I mentioned everything! Further details will be explained tomorrow! Until then..." He raised his hand in farewell. "12:00 at the training grounds, don't be late!" He walked slowly to back stage. Voices of worried students and amused parents rose almost instantly. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Lev, Mother, and Kedai look at me. I kept the thoughtful expression on my face.

"Well," Lev said. "are you ready?"

"No-one's ever fully ready, no matter what they think...." I replied, getting out of my seat and walking toward the door.

"That's our Lucy!" Lev said, patting my head. I looked at the ceiling and sighed.

It seems life has more surprises than necessary.


Okay!! Don't forget to comment on how it was, if you read it all! I tried to be funny at a few parts, but I think I probably failed... Anyway, thanks so much for reading!! <3<3

Growing up is Scary

When I was younger, about eight or nine, you would ask me what I wanted at McDonald's. I would whisper into your ear, "I want the usual." because I was too shy to talk to the teenager behind the counter. You would order for me, and hand me my food. We would walk to a table and eat with dad and Audra. I never talked to you guys while I ate, because I was so young, and I had nothing seemingly interesting to talk about. I occasionally listened to dad talk, but it didn't make sense to me. Now, I order for myself. I do, sometimes, talk with you guys at the dinner table, but I'm still the youngest, and often ignored. I come home and do homework and girl scouts and dance class. Things are complicated now. I have to make my own decisions and go on mostly alone. I get aggravated when people want me to do something.
"Brevyn, come over tonight!"
"Brevyn, walk home with me!"
"Brevyn...!"
"Brevyn...!"
"Brevyn...!"
Can't you leave me alone in my dark abyss of annoyance? Can't you let me be? It's hard enough dealing with my own life! Don't make me deal with yours! Leave me be, and go away. There are plenty of times in the day that I can lose my temper. No matter what it looks like, I never do. It complicates things even more. So leave me in my shadows. I don't want the sun. I don't want a light. Just stop time forever, so it stays night. I don't have to go anywhere, just stay.
Growing up and moving on is scary. But I guess everyone goes through it, so those hypocritical bastards wont let me whine about it anymore.

Mirrors and baby teeth

Lol, I just ripped out my last baby tooth!! #^^#

I saw Mirrors tonight. It was very gruesome, and it made me jump. I thought the effects were decent, but it kind of ended three times. Lol, I went with my mom and sister and we met Colton there (he called me to see if I wanted to go with him, but I said I was already going). The most memorable quotes from my mom and sister (I was in teh middle of them) were, "The possessed chick sounds like our dogs fighting!" and "Now you face the biggest boss. A 64-year-old possessed nun!"

xD

<3 Vynn, the Paragon of Humanity (now a bit afraid of mirrors...)

first day of school outfit

finally!! please exuse the dumb-ass look on my face! I'm a bad model T_T.

I woke up too early.

Lol, I woke up a bit too early for school.

Yesses, it starts today. Goodbye, Freedom. I'll see you in 9 months, or so.

But I am a little excited; I want lots of comments on my outfit. It's almost... lolita. I'll take a pic today and put it up. I'm also curious as to what kind of new kids (noobs, as my sis would put it) there are. I hope some actually COOL ones. >>

<3 Vynn, teh SEVENTH GRADER!

I told in my confession today about the incarnation as an eskimo.

Dear Kat,

I don't really know how to tell you this, but I dislike you. I think I realized it last night in your camping car and I saw you sit on my best friend. I'm sure you're senile enough to understand that Extreme Home Makeover sucks. I'm returning the cut toenails to you, but I'll keep your photo as a memory. You should also know that I told in my confession today about the incarnation as an eskimo.

Go Burn,
Vynn


Rules: Do the Letter MEME, Tag 5 other People and leave them a comment informing them that they have been tagged. Then copy the "How-to" Letter Meme, and finish your Journal entry.

How you do the Letter Meme:

Dear (the last person who left a comment on your Journal)
don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it ___2___ ___3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___.___
12___,-Your name-

1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kebab - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife

4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red – Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange – Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out

5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - High
House - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-east Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks

8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service

9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked

11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitationsMineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics

12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off now
France - In pain
Other - Greetings to your freaky family

Mehehe, I kind of stole this from Karaiwashi, but it was so funny, I couldn't pass it. I tag anyone who wants to do this.

*drool*

For some reason, my day has been filled with freaking CRAZY people.

I mean, not REAL people. Anime people.

Okay, #1. I finished Avatar: The Last Airbender today, and, of course, the Zuko's sister, Azula, went crazy after she gained so much power.

#2. I'm at the end of Full Metal Alchemist, and pretty much EVERYONE there is crazy.

#3. This should explain it.

#4. I listened to a couple of lullabies from the animes Death Note and D. Gray Man. One was Misa's Lullaby (<-click this one for lyrics), or Misa no Uta. The other one was Lala's Lullaby (Lala no Komori Uta), which, frankly, was so beautiful, I almost cried. Making my cry from a song is NOT easy. Anyway, Misa's Lullaby reminded me of Death Note, which reminded me of Light, and... um.... And Lala's Lullaby reminded me of the last scene she sang it in, which was really sad and it made me want to scream and cry.

Guh, so yesses.

<3 VyNn, the Paragon of CrAzYnEsS!! xD

Itai Itai Itai Itai Itai Itai Itai...

('itai' is 'ow' in Japanese)

FOUR HOURS OF DANCE CLASS DOES YOU NO GOOOODDD!!! *cry*

guh. my muscles hurt....

BADLY.

and my eyes, too. I have to wear my contacts all the time, 'cause I accidentally left my glasses at my friend's aunt's house in HAYS (and hour and 1/2 away).

D':

<3 Vynn (itai itai itai itai itai...)

Ahhh...

Ahh, I just took a nice, hot shower.

Why am I telling you this?

Because I took it at the medical clinic my dad works at.

Do you know why...?

BECAUSE OUR FREAKIN' HOT WATER DOESN'T WOOOOORRRRKKKK!!!!!!

*fumes*

<3 Vynn -- if I'm the Paragon of Humanity, then why do I have so much bad luck?!?!

P.S. The answer is because I can LIVE through it without,
A. Committing suicide.
B. Going crazy (-er than I was born)

I'm back!!

Okays, so I'm back in Colby. But life hates me, apparently. The ONLY Bleach manga Barnes and Noble DIDN'T have was #2.

THE WAS THE ONE I WANTED!!!!

They also didn't have freaking Gothic Sports #4.

So All I got was Chibi Vampire #7. :(

Well, it was a very good read, at least!!

<3 Vynn, --MANGA!!!-- the Paragon of Humanity

*melts*

It's 112 degrees... And my grandma's air conditioner is broken...

eeeeerrrrrgggghhh....

<3 Vynn, I'M MELLLLTTTTIIIING!!!!!!

*dies*

Uh... rawr... (hmm... this has been a title before!)

Argh. stupid me, turning my sleep around. I got up at 9:00 this morning for the orthodontist, which was bad enough, but now I have to get up at 6 IN THE FRIGGIN' MORNING so we can get on the road to Arizona... grr...

Lol.

YoU WaNNa mAke SoMe BISCUITS?!?!?!

Cheers if you know what/who I'm quoting.

Hugglez if you know both!

Kisses if you know why I brought it up.

<3 Vynn, the Biscuit-Eating Paragon of Humanity. xD

*rocks back and forth*

LOLOLOLOLOL!!!! AAAHHHHHH!!!! IJUSTSTAYEDUPALLNIGHTWITHOUTANYSLEEPATALL!!!
WWHOOOOOO!!!!! Oh yeah! I am SO hyper. I keep laughing at AIR.
AAAIIIRRR!! AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!
I want eggs...
eggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggs
mmm... LOL I am getting bored of my alien book, so I'm taking a break from it and writing a new story!! (oh! and I haven't posted anything from the alien book because I read an article that if some editors see your book posted somewhere other than the actual book, they wont publish it! (=O oh mai!!) Here's teh story.
NEEDS A NEW TITLE!!! AHHHHHHH!!!!! *fetal position

<3VYNNTEHPARAGONOFHUMANITY!!! WAAAAAHHHH!!! lawlzz.

Soooooo Booooored...

Ugh. I have NOTHING to do.
...
Well, nothing fun. Unless, of course, Audra is off the PC. But I'm too lazy to go check at the moment. I'm waiting for my anime show to load (hmm... it feels like I've blogged about this before...) and I really don't feel like drawing. And, uuuugggghh... my stomach muscles hurt sooo much! My dance teachers are SLAVE DRIVERS! Even Ashley. At least Nichole wasn't there this time. oO I might be dead.

What's that?

Do something social?

Let me contemplate this...

...

...

AHAHAHAHAHA!!!!! Yeah right!

<3 Vynn, the -- anti-social -- Paragon of Humanity

Yes, I am 12

Allozz.
I've been having this peculiar obsession with dance and pop music lately. Such as: Almost Lover (which is pop), Bad Boy, Everytime We Touch, Freak Out, Paralyzed (which is alternative, but it kind of sounds like dance music), and Love me Dead (which is kind of like Paralyzed).

So yeses. Oh! And anime. I've been going crazy with that (ex. I am on episode 241 of Naruto and I watched the whole Fruits Basket series in 2 days, even though there are only 26 episodes...)

OH YEAH! I need a life. But, whenever someone mentions the sun, I go *hisss*. ^^

Vynn, the Paragon of Humanity *hissss*

Salvador Dali Dreams

Hee hee, I got a kick out of dinner last night. We went to Montana Mikes and my sister was being nice (miracles happen)! I was talking about my dream, which seemed remotely normal. I usually have weird dreams, so I asked, "Hey, you know that painting with the melting clocks? Who's that by again?"

"Salvador Dali?"

"Yeah!" I said. "I have, like, Salvador Dali dreams!"

They all laughed and said, "That would be a good name for a book!"
So I think I will someday write a book called, 'Salvador Dali Dreams'...

Yeah.

Then, later, I took a drink of Root Beer and they made me laugh. I couldn't swallow, so I just tried my best to keep it in my mouth. Then, some went down my throat accidentally and I choked and coughed and... well, I didn't get to take my fries home. So yeah... OH! And I got to share a big ice cream and cake thing with my sister!

<3 Vynn, the Paragon of Humanity.

P.S. If you want to know my dream, it was that I was at the pool with my friend Mariah (who I know in real life) and my favorite character from Naruto, Kiba. We were trying to get to the big water slide, but we couldn't figure out how to get to it. o.O and there were zombies that spewed snow from their eyes o_o. This is a more real dream then any of my others.

.:.

So, my summer has been going well, how 'bout all of yours? There are these train tracks by my house and there is this big train on them that my mom calls "The Ugly Train". Here are pics of it --> Ugly Train Series

So, if you pass the train and keep going straight on the tracks, you'll come to this bridge, and it has a great view (sorry, I don't have a pic of that up yet). Also, near that, is a little hiding spot that would be beautiful (Hidey Hole) if it weren't for the pollution (This is Our World)

Yes.

On another note, why am I always the bad guy? I mean, maybe not the bad guy, but the jerk! Like, lots of people have told me they hate me, said I was a bitch, or called me a jerk. Not that I care very much, there's this really funny thing I could say to them that I got off of Facebook:

Oh, so YOU'RE the bitch that told a bitch I'm a bitch.
Well LISTEN UP bitch,
It takes a bitch to know a bitch, BITCH!

Or I could just say the last line, but still funny!!

<3 The [bitchy] Paragon of Humanity

Apocalypse

You know, if the world ends when the Mayans predicted it would (December 21, 2012), I will only be 16. I won't even be out of high school! I would be 20 days away from being 17, too. It would be a very sad thing if the world ever ended. People just have too much fun living. I pity souls who have committed or want to commit suicide. We all have only so much time in this world.

It's horribly superstitious, but on that day in that year, I might just go down into a cellar, put on a gas mask, and cover up in a fire blanket...

I just may never have kids...

<3 Vynn, the Paragon of Humanity who is questioning humanity.

Uh... rawr...

Allozz.
I just got back a few hours ago from North Platte, Nebraska. It's about 2 hours from where I live. It was really fun, except my legs are KILLING me now. Well, I guess I'll start from Thursday, when we drove to Denver (3 hours away)to shop before we drove to the soccer tournament. I had more fun than I usually did shopping (I'm not much of a shopping girl). I found out from my sister on the way there that we had the WHOLE D.N.ANGEL SERIES on DVD. I'm now on ep. 23 I think.
Aud and I were talking in the car and we're just like "What was the main character's name? I can't remember!!"
And then I was like, "DAISUKE! THAT'S his name!!"
"Oh yeah! Niwa!"
"NIWA!!!" We both said. It was really funny. Anyway, I also got the 2nd (even though I didn't read the 1st) manga book of Gothic Sports. It's about a gothic soccer team that wants their own team in school, but it's mostly girls, so they have some trouble getting to.
So, onto soccer. After we got back from Denver, I packed up again and the next morning we were off to North Platte! Hee hee, you'll get a kick out of this. Out town has such a sense of humor, we named our team "The Sassy Grandmas."
No, really. I'm serious!!
So we played two games yesterday. We played on a field about half the size of a football field. XP I did sooo much running. Except they took me out for two quarters in each game and then again today. I played straight though the last game, though. Well, back to yesterday. After the second game, we got to run around for a while, and then a couple hours later, we got to go to a BBQ. Mom and Audra got me Chibi Vampire 2 (it's a manga book, an anime show, AND a novel) at the mall. XD While they were there, I go to read lots of New Moon. Really, I'm not diggin' New Moon so far, cause Edwards just... gone, you know? Well, I got to go swimming with Sarah and Hannah. Then, at the end, I got to sit in the hot tub with Sarah, Hannah, Marc, and Conner. And I felt really awkward because I was right in-between Marc and Conner. ^_^ It was fun, though. Before Conner and Marc came up, we were doing the splits (well, sorta, our legs are long and the tub was small) and stretching in the hot tub 'cause our muscles were expanding from the heat, you know?
I had a restless night, I kept waking up, for some reason. And I didn't have any dreams, so it felt like I was just closing and opening my eyes.
Today, we lost our game, but we did put up a fight. We lost the tournament, but since there were only 3 teams in U-14 (our age group, of course), we got 3rd place :P!
So, I'm going to give you some poetry really quickly:

I lay in bed and listen to silence.
I think about the dreams I create.
I go to sleep and wake again,
Only to find the dark still awake.

I try again and succeed,
But later I find I failed.
This restlessness is killing me,
I wonder when I will be bailed.

Lulzz. It was fun. Well, I'm tired, so I'm gonna go to sleep. Night!

<3 Vynn, the [tired] Paragon of Humanity XD

Denver

I'm in Denver! Well, it's morning and we're leaving soon, but we're still here! I'll tell you more in a few days, 'cause after that I'm going to a soccer tournament.

<3 Vynn, the Paragon of Humanity

Uuurrrrgghh...

I've got to clean my roooom...
I hate cleaning.
AND I have to organize my clothes into:
Summer Clothes
Winter clothes that will fit next fall
and
too small clothes.
-headdesk-

<3 Vynn, the Paragon of Humanity... *twitch*

Bored and intelligent

Life is happiness.
Happiness is nice.
Nice is loyal.
Loyal is trusting.
Trusting is knowledgeable.
Knowledge is un-knowledgeable.
No knowledge is ignorance.
Ignorance is agonizing.
Agonize is horrible.
Horror is hate.
Hate is life,
And life is death.

I haven't written poetry in a while, so I whipped this up.

STATEMENT OF THE DAY: Life is like a crack in a mirror or window. It keeps getting longer and larger and more on-edge, but for some reason, it still has some use.

WORD OF THE DAY: Obsesified.

(I wont do this everyday, I hope you know...)

<3 Vynn, the VERY BORED Paragon of Humanity.

Picture-- FINALLY!!

There you go. It only really looks blue in sunlight now, so I had to open my window!!:P Oh, and I know my bangs look SUPER short, but they are just curly right now.

Apologies

Okay, I PROMISE I'll get you a pic of my hair soon! I was gonna do it last night, but here are a few reasons why I didn't:
1) I turned off the computer before I remembered.
2) My hair was WAY to flat for you to see how cute it was.
3) I was too lazy to turn on the light.

Anyway, I'll prolly get a pic on later today after my hair dries (I just took a shower with curly-hair shampoo). Also, it will only look blue if I can get the right lighting. I say this because it also looks:
Black
Green
and silver/gray.

<3 Vynn, the Paragon of Humanity

I feel a little guilty...

Because there was this eight-grader who sat by me at this assembly we had to go to today, and she was really annoying. My tolerance was pretty much washed up by the last 30 minutes of school, so I was being pretty uninterested and bitchy. She was really preppy, talkative, and LOUD. She kept asking "Is she your friend?" when a girl passed. Then she said, "Am I your friend?!"
"Umm... sure, I guess..." I replied.
"WOW!! I have a new friend!! I don't even know your name!!!"
"I'm Brevyn"
"OHHHH!!!! NOW I know you! Yeah, you're one of the prettiest 6Th graders!!"
"Oh... uh... thanks..." And then I felt guilty for being so cranky.

<3 Vynn, the Paragon of Humanity (and apparently a magnet for preppy girls to hang about and annoy...)

Getting to know... uhh... me.

I got this from Griffinrider (I wish I had a real name to call you!). This is to get to know me better. They're not all embarrassing or stupid, so...

1) I've had stitches.
2) I've never broken a bone or had a bloody nose.
3) I used to be a crybaby, and sometimes still am.
4) I have mistaken spinach(I'm pretty sure it was spinach...) for grass.
5) I've eaten a little bit of sand.
6) I've recently eaten paper (I have a chewing problem).
7) I've had only a drop of vanilla from the bottle and gagged.
8) I've drank rotten milk twice in the same week.
9) I am terrified of large animals, mostly horses and cows *hides*.
10) I can't read emotions.
11) I can't really take a hint (His friends had to TELL me Jaden liked me after they gave a thousand hints day after day.)
12) I space out too much.
13) I am moody most the time and rarely have fully happy days.
14) I hate it when people make me laugh when I am angry or depressed.
15) I have a laughing problem (there is no such thing as 'poker face' in Brevyn world).
16) I am actually surprised that I still have friends at school.
17) I AM AN AIRHEAD!!!!
18) I have a HORRIBLE memory.
19) I often have unrealistic fantasies.
20) I am Atheist

Well, there's 20 useless facts about me!! o.O There's a part of your life you'll never get back.

<3 Vynn, the Paragon of Humanity and useless fact spitter.

HAIR

I just dyed my hair bluuuuue!!!! I'll upload a pic of it later, kay?

<3 Vynn, the Paragon of Humanity

Manga

Ha, I got my hair fixed today!

I agree with y mom, too. I look like a manga character.

I will even more after I dye my hair.

Also to Griffinrider: I've dyed my hair pink, too. It was an accident, though. It was supposed to be red and we didn't have enough dye. My mom has also made the mistake of dying her hair COTTON CANDY PINK.

<3 Vynn, the Paragon of Humanity and walking cosplay character.

Show of hands.

Please, raise your hand.

Who's ever had a home hair-cut?

I just did. By myself. With crappy scissors.

Yeah. It looks like crap. It wouldn't, but I totally screwed up on my right side. So it's all even, except one part where it sweeps up. Fortunately, there's only a couple weeks of school left. Unfortunately, I have to wear my hair in clips or a headband.

Blargg!

<3 Vynn, the Paragon of Humanity with a bad hair-cut!

P.S. I am NOT showing pictures.

The new 'Pledge'.

1) I pledge aliegence to the flag,
of the United States of America.
And to the republic, to which it stands,
One nation, under God, indivisible,
With liberty and justice for all.

2) There flies the flag of the U.S.A.
The flag that people fought and died for.
The pointless 'freedom' that followed.
That one nation, under the sky,
With no liberty or justice for anyone.

True and honest, which one makes more sense?

Sorry to all you 'All-American, true to my country' people, but this(the second statement) is how I feel.

No-one is any more free with our president than with the King. People are still treated like crap, whether it's because of their mind, sexual oriantation, or race. Also, I don't believe in God, so that should be changed, too.

<3 Vynn, the Paragon of Humanity.

Iron Man

I saw Iron Man last night, obviously. It was pretty good. Really funny. But it seemed too short. I mean, it was a bout an hour and a half, but it seemed like 30 minutes! Seriously, it ended and I was like, "WTF?!" Anyway, it was still good.

<3 Vynn, the Paragon of Humanity

Just if you're wondering...

My new pic says Brevyn T. K. F. And also, that's the REAL me. My hair isn't straightened, and I don't have contacts in. Yep, that's all natural curl!

People can be damn stupid.

Never ever trust someone who was born and raised in Colby, Kansas (we shall refer to them as 'Colbians') with sharp objects. Today, during math, Kaden was doing something stupid with the scissors, and he cut his finger. Let's just say, it was no paper-cut.

Okay, okay.

It was a gusher.

<3 Vynn, the Paragon of Humanity

Ow. The floor hurts...

I tripped.
It was painful.
And I'm tired.
Maybe these pants are too baggy?
...
Nah!
Thanks for all the nice comments on my story!
I didn't know it was so good.

<3
Vynn, the Paragon of Humanity.

A small taste of my book

(this is a flashback, a story, okay? Not present day in the book.Intonel's telling it to Parker)

Planet Dorno, 11 years ago
It was another nice day for everyone without fur. Cosh was panting like a dog, but everyone else was content, even Lee and Drake. Intonel and Cosh were sitting under a tree, talking about random things and fantasies. They eventually got up and walked to the playground equipment. When they got to the swings, the other kids walked away. Intonel put one knee on the swing and gripped the chains.
“I wonder what happened?” She asked herself. Cosh felt bad for scaring everyone away from her as well as himself. But he felt better when she said. “Whatever, who cares?” She looked back at him and smiled sweetly in that way she just could. He smiled back and got on the swings. They stayed like that.
But then came Ghani.
They’d known him since they first went to day-care.
“What? You don’t even remember day-care? Ugh… Humans.”
The day-care center and the pre-school were the same room, because of the size of the town.
“Hi, Ghani!” Intonel said enthusiastically. Lee fluttered happily in the air. She jumped off of the swing in the air and landed gracefully. It was her way of impressing people. Cosh had never tried that, so he thought he would, and show Ghani something that he could do. Bracing himself, he jumped off of the swing and tried to land gracefully, also.
But that, of course, did not happen.
He lost his balance and ended up skidding to a halt on his stomach at Ghani’s feet. He looked down at him with distaste. Intonel looked embarrassed, but she helped him up.
“Hey, Intonel…” He said. Intonel blushed. Sean hissed friendlily and smiled. “…Cosh, work on that landing.” Cosh didn’t like Ghani. Ghani didn’t like him. Ghani was mean to him, because he was two years younger, but when he told Intonel, she didn’t believe him. Of course, he was a sweetheart to Intonel, because she was gullible.
“Um, hi, Gha-”
“So, Nelly,” Intonel blushed more at the sound of him using her nickname. “what’re you doing?”
“Oh! Uh… n-not much!” Intonel stuttered.
“Hey, you up for a challenge?” He asked coolly, mischief sparkling in his eyes.
“N-”
“Sure!” Intonel cut Cosh off. He smiled evilly. He always seemed to get his way.
“Okay. Here it is. My sister’s kite got stuck up there,” He pointed to the largest tree in the park. The one with the sharp rock under it. Intonel saw a glint and assumed that was the kite.
Cosh seemed to be the only one who realized the kite was stuck right above the sharp rock.
“Think you can get it down for me?” Intonel’s eyes glinted with fear for an instant. Then with excitement and pride.
“Yeah! Totally!” She said.
“No!” Their heads turned to Cosh. “I mean… I’ll do it!” He swallowed.
Ghani scowled. “What, Cosh? Don’t think your sister can handle climbing a lousy tree to get a kite for her beloved Ghani?”
“If it’s so easy, why don’t you go get it yourself?” Ghani’s eyes glinted with anger.
“Cosh!” Intonel said loudly. “I can handle it! I’m not stupid! And I’ve been climbing trees for weeks!” She and Lee started toward the tree.
“But-” But he stopped when he felt scales around his ankles. He looked down, his eyes wide. Sean was at his feet.
“Yeah, Cosh,” he hissed. “don’t be so, hyssssterical…” He cackled evilly. Cosh was frozen in place. Ghani passed him, chuckling.
“C’mon, Doggy Boy, this’ll be quite a show.” He elbowed Cosh in the ribs and he fell over Sean, who slithered away after Ghani.
“Oh, no…” He breathed to himself. He scrambled to his feet and ran to the tree as fast as he could. Somehow, Ghani had already gotten there before him. Intonel had also already gotten to a high branch. She reached up to grab the kite, which was bright yellow, but something was amiss. Intonel paused to ponder what was so different, and then in hit her…
… just about as fast as the snake’s tail hit her in the stomach. She gave an eep of surprise and tumbled to the ground.
Cosh yelled and ran to catch her, but a hand grabbed the back of his shirt and flung him backwards. He was on his feet and running again in and instant. He knew it was too late, but he still kept running.
Intonel turned in midair and put her hands in front of her face. She landed, none too softly. But there was a twist. She seemed to have fallen quite close to the trunk, so she landed, not only on her face, but on the sharp rock, too. I cut clean through her side. She shrieked in pain and cried. Lee dropped onto her from the air, weak.
“Intonel!” She faintly heard a voice through the growing fog in her mind.
“Intonel!” Cosh yelled again. He looked back to glare at Ghani, but he had disappeared. He picked up Intonel and started to run home, making sure Lee was safely tucked into the crook on Intonel’s arm, and that the other arm was over the deep wound.
The last thing Intonel was before darkness engulfed her was Cosh’s worried face.


There! I hope ye all liked it!!as I said, this was a story Intonel was telling to one of the humans to explain how she got her scar!

Delays

Allozz.
AHH!! I get to dye my hair bluuuuuee!!
But I don't get to until May 12, because I have a dance recital.
^_^ I'm psyched.
This girl I know is going to Hot Topic in the mall in Wichita, Kansas, tomorrow, and she said she would pick up some dye for me as well as some for her and I could just pay her back.
*takes deep breath* yeah. I'll give y'all (did I just say that?) a pic when it's fiiiinished!!

<3
Vynn, the Paragon of Humanity

'Tis a miracle

Allozz.
Well, today wasn't too bad. I didn't get toner or hair dye, and I got into a fight with my mom, but the rest was pretty okay. I got to laugh a lot, since I had a soccer game and every guy on the team is super violent and competitive. Chance threw a ball at Reed and it hit him it the nuts! ^_^ it was pretty funny. Then everyone was trying to kill Chance, and he kept getting hit in the head. I got hit in the face, HARD, but that was my fault. Brady also kept dying. It was all a bowl of giggles.

I also gotted to go to the movies with Sierra. Though she was talking the whole time, it was really fun. We saw Drillbit Taylor... um... I'm pretty sure that's what it was called...I fogotted... Anyway, her bro's kinda hot and I got to sit by him in the car! ^_^ and he gave me a pop tart, too! BONUS!

Then I finished chapter 6 of my book.

<3
Vynn, the Paragon of Humanity (that's just my title and sig. now :D)

P.S. I'm not whining? 'Tis a miracle!!

Blarg

I know you're all probably pretty sick of listening to my self-sympathy and whining by now.

However...

My parents think they know EVERYTHING! And no, I'm not talking about wanting me to be perfect, this time.

I am talking about my 12-year-old love life.

My flipping love-life!!

Weeeeell... as if I had one. But they're still talking about it.
Me + Colton = Stabbing in the face and broken limbs.

They keep telling me I'm flirting with him and I don't don't don't like him! AT ALL!

GOD...

I don't like him because he's inconsiderate of anyone's feelings and he's a JERK!

AHHHH!!!!! *stabbing random passerby*

Grrr....
Vynn,
The Paragon of Humanity and your ruler.
Also the person to stab you in the face (or draw it) if you say I do like him, I'm just neglecting it, or that I'm whiny, because I know that (the whiny part).

D-:<

Grr...
My friends don't like one of my other friends, Sierra, because they think she's annoying. So whenever I'm around Sierra, they avoid me too! I can't just leave Sierra and go with my other friends, because Sierra doesn't have many friends. And I don't know why all my friends are bitching (pardon that) about that, because they can be JUST as annoying.

Sometimes I wish I had no friends except for you guys, because you don't know my friends, so you can't really reject them.

Has anyone ever heard of the band Anberlin? They rock.

Yours beloved,
Vynn, The Paragon of Humanity.


P.S. Sorry most my blogs are self-sympathy. But that's what blogs are for, right? Ranting and random thoughts.

Eyes.

Okay, I've got to admit. One thing I do like about meself are my eyes! They are like, weird!! Grey-ish brown lining the pupil, then a thick layer of green/blue(mostly green, but sometimes more blue), then black!!
Weird, huh?

<3 Vynn

Hmm...

Allozz.
Everyone says 'Be yourself and everything will be fine.', right?

Well what if you don't like who you are?
Like, your personality.

Because that's how it is for me. I hate that I laugh so easily. I dislike my annoying laugh. I hate my pride, sometimes.

I also don't like my look, sometimes, either. Like, I wish I had auburn hair. I wish I had a smaller, less formal face. So, if I could chose, I would want a cuter nose and a shorter face. Bigger eyes, maybe, and bigger lips, too. I hate, hate, HATE that I like to eat so much.

And one more thing.

I hate being temper mental and I hate when I can't choose my feelings. So, like, one second I'm happy, then I'm sad, then I super-ultra hyper.

Who else feels like this? Please tell me what you would change.

<3 Vynn

P.S. I also wish I had a different name! Not Brevyn, becasue everyone says it's beautiful, but I know they're thinking 'cute' not 'beautiful'. I want something that people actually think is beautiful and sophisticated. Like Violet. I LOVE that name!