family is a word I love and hate so much.

Update

Hi... guys. (if anyone is out there).
Just thought I'd drop in and tell you what's happening on my end.
Things are still bad, if not worse.
I don't have any courage to tell my mom I don't want to stay here, and Manual accepted me, so she expects me to. Mariah has already told me that I should come out and tell her what would make me happy, but I can't, I really can't. Even thinking about that conversation makes me start to cry.
The school I got into has lost it's shining glory, as well. I've been there a few times, and it's big and there's a tense atmosphere, and I feel like going there will make people expect more out of me than there is to give. I really feel like I don't belong there, but now I'm losing my place in Kansas, because since I left, it seems like everyone's life and personality has completely changed.

on the bright side, lots of my friends got into the same school, so they'll be there next year. also a couple of my friends are trying to hook me up with a guy they've known for a while, so maybe that will give me a sense of belonging...

<3 Vynnie, as always, and more.